Unfortunately, this vacation involves taking many flights and just the thought of it is freaking me out! I have to drug myself up to even board a place which is extremely ironic since I've been flying every since I was 6 months. My parents have visited the entire world with us but as I keep getting older, my phobia has increased. I haven't let it deter me from seeing the world but it does make me think twice before booking a vacation. I'm not so scared of flying where it's debilitating for me but it makes me very nervous. I have many other fears that truly shake me to my core....eek!
Recently my friend happened to show me all the random texts I've messaged many of my family/friends over the years right before boarding my flight (remember i'm high on my drugs by this point). Most of the messages are of me pleading for someone to save me or talking about dying....I know morbid right?
But then all of my messages, always for no apparent reason, go into how I want a cat and how we are going to be best friends.....yes, I know, it's weird....my friends/family LOVE this part!
I am trying so hard to not back out of this trip and every single day I have to talk myself into it. The tickets got booked today so I guess there is no backing out now.
As I sit here writing this post, I can't help but become anxious, but the possibility of missing out on such an amazing experience certainly outweighs any of my fears.
I hope everyone has had a chance to get away this summer and if you haven't there's still time! You may want to tag along with me so I have someone's hand to hold to during the flight :)